lickmebeautiful

Yeah, it's been a while.



I want to re-assimilate myself to DA again, been feeling empty and uninspired.  I'm not so keen on the name I made back in 2003 or so, I may make an entirely new account.

So what have I been doing?

The mom thing.. Jayden is FOUR now.. (huh, a four year hiatus from DA and a FOUR year old son? connection?).  We're currently living at a college on the east coast where I attend classes for Visual Communications.  My art has come and gone, but as progressed nonetheless.  I have this undying need to explore what I really want to do with art.  I'm working my third internship at a print studio, and I couldnt be MORE out of touch with it.  I've been here almost 3 months and I am a terrible designer for them.  I WANT to notice details.. I WANT to find some sort of appreciation for typography and paper choice and all things printed, but the more I try the more distant I become with it all.  It's coming to a point that I almost resent my affinity for cartoons and illustration.  :

So a crossroads of sorts.  I'll be graduating in May and will be relocating to a place where I can hopefully, (cross your goddamn fingers everybody), can find a job doing _______.  I never want to edit text again. Ever. I feel like the written word should be powerful enough to emote the meaning, and typography acts as a second party attorney, keeping rule and order, picking away at the paragraphs and injecting control over the details.  Sneaking manipulation.

I like cartoons.  Not so much anime, more like Looney Toons or flash games.  Do I want to do that?  I want freedom.  Rampant expression.  I want action, explosion, and lack of plot.  Antithesis!!! AHHHH!!! I DO NOT WANT TO COMMUNICATE THROUGH ART.  I JUST WANT IT TO BE. I see art as an extension of emotion.. or expression.  The way The Angry Beavers express anger... is how I want to communicate.  I, apparently, cannot detail it here, but I thought this Visual Communication program held the availability to NOT communicate.  To opt out.  That opting out? THAT's where I want to create.  

The space between absurd and unmarketable is holding a sign with my name on it.

Yeah, so I finally uploaded pictures of Jayden.  I suck at keeping up with the comments and fav's, and I'm very sorry.  Thank you everyone for your support and kind words   I love you guys.  Oh yeah, and sorry about flooding your message center with nothing but baby photos.. you'll just have to deal, because theres more to come.  




He's 2 months old now.. can you believe that??

Whoever is my 10,000th pageview should let me know!!




I cant believe I'm at the 10,000 mark, it's just weird.




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And for everyone else?  Send me labor vibes, this pregnancy thing has GOT to go!

Well I finally submitted a bunch of my stuff, not sure how satisfied I am with all of them.  I do like my last one though

Nothing much is new, just getting rounder.  I'm 22 weeks and 1 day today
I usually just all day long.  Hopefully I'll be submitting some more tummy pics in the weeks to come.  I'm looking into getting a remote for my camera so I dont have to go back and forth to the tripod and re-adjust all the settings again and again.

It's nice to be back though,

Thank you so much for everyone thats 'd my work and for all the 's this past week

Love you guys..